Dear Gerard, Ray, Mikey, Frank, and Bob.
This is for you.
Thank you. That's the only word I can use to describe how you guys helped me. I know it dosn't sound like much, but; thank you. I love you guys. You are everything to me.
I've only been listening to you guys for a few months, a year at most. Would you believe me when I told you that, when I first listened to you, when I was eight... When I watched the Helena video, it scared the hell out of me. My first thought was, oh my god, the lead singer is so girly and the bassist is dorky and more. This was back when I actually cared what people thought of me, back when I took everyone's shit. Would you believe me when I tell you, when I was around ten, when I discovered the I'm Not Okay video-I didn't know you where the same band, believe it or not, or I didn't remember Helena at the time-that, again, the lead singer looked girly, and the lead guitarist needed to cut his hair. And that you guys sucked and I never wanted to listen to you again because, that just wasn't what I was into when I was that age.
And then, two years later or so. Around eleven or twelve, I was getting more into the darker or punkier music. I happened upon Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, and it was an instant hit. And why does this matter? Well, one day, when I was looking around for songs of theirs. And I saw one that looked interisting; Drowning Lessons. Of course, I know now that, that is your song, but someone hadn't tagged it right and said it was RJA's. I clicked on it, and was blown away. I loved the song, but was too young to know what the lyrics meant, or anything. And, of course, in the corner of the page, it had related songs. And one of yours was there. I clicked on it and, again, was blown away.  The rest is pretty obvious.
I hadn't been listening to you more then about six months when I realized you where on tour. So I told my mom, and we went. To the May fourth, Columbus, Ohio one, to be exact. I didn't know half the songs, didn't know who was who, but I was blown away. It was the best time I had ever had, peroid. It was just...amazing. And I doubt I'll ever forget it. I bought my first My Chemical Romance shirt that day and my first pair of tripp pants, just for the show.
Now I know so much more about you guys, it's amazing. I can't believe how dense I was at your show, and now, only two months later, I know so much more. And it blows me away. How much shit you've overcome, it's amazing.
Gerard. You.... you're an amazing artist. I look up to you, I freaking look up to you, not just because you're two feet taller then I am, but because you're just awesome. You take the shit you get, and then you grin and bare it, and put it into music. And it's just wild. I love you, not because you're handsome, but because you're all-out talented. And don't let any one tell you otherwise.
Ray.  You inspired me to play guitar. I shoved it off before, and now...now I'm thrilled when I learn a few more seconds of a song I know you play at concerts, of a song I know you practiced just as hard when you where learning it. It thrills me and makes me so happy, I could cry. And..and...I don't know what else. You're just so amazing, and I love you just as much as Gerard, because your freaking talented.
Frank. You are the one, when I am sixteen or so, and have fourty dollars to spare, I am getting a tattoo dedicated to. I am. I am going out and getting a tattoo for you. It's not going to be anything special, but I'm going to. It's going to be like the hope tattoo you have. And I can't wait. I know it'll hurt but it'll be worth it in a few years, when I see you all in concert again, I can go up to you and say,'I'm the girl who wrote you a letter saying I was going to get a tattoo for you. And I did.' And be so freaking proud of it, because I know you have the same pride in your tattoos. And I love you, because you're just as short/as tall as I am, and it makes me confident to know I'm not just some short kid that can get beat around. Because I know you take no shit, and I won't, either.
Mikey. I... To be honest, I was afraid of you at first. When I saw your picture, you where the kind of person I thought could give a deathglare and rip you to shreds. But the more I learned, the more I realized, you're just as big of a sweetheart as Ray. You're funny and a very good bassist. I really don't know much about you--you're so quiet!--but I know you're confident. And I will remember that and be just as confident when I play my guitar or anything.
Bob. Last but not least, Bob. My gosh... You're amazing. You're talented, and strong-willed. And you're able to scare the shit out of half of My Chemical Romance's fans when you get injured even though we know you're going to be okay. Because you're Bob, and you recover from everything. And you're so sweet to everyone. And I swear, you can ask my friends... I tell them,'Bob Bryar has the most beautiful eyes. If he has kids they better have his eyes because they are just amazing.' I love you, you're an amazing drummer. I sent you something this summer, I doubt you got it. It was from a girl in Indiana. And it had your name all over it... and a picture and a letter on the inside. And I hope you freaking got it, because it had the original picture I drew in it!
Anyway. I love you all. You're amazing, and fantastic, and your music does wonders to the soul. It heals. It truely does.
I love you guys,
Hayden-Alexis Spalding